palo alto: cutting great neck 2.0


a poem about nothing

14:30 / by the gloriously humble gadi cohen / loving replies (3)



i have collected
scraps of nothing,
the dead leaves
pouring from my
bedroom window
and into the world—
hundreds of them,
useless and tittering
across the parquet
with shallow faces
from yellowing plants.
the heat extracts
the strongest scents
from the greenest
trees: the evergreens,
the oaks, the sallow,
nocturnal willows
stand in rows, emit
a sacrosanct song
that trembles in the air
like empty voices,
unanswered gods.
“who do you think
you are?” the nothing
titters, and dust rises
from beneath bare feet.
maybe i’m nothing, too?



not posting too much; end-of-year tests, etc. sorry! will post more soon!

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difficult month / un mes dificil

19:22 / by the gloriously humble gadi cohen / loving replies (2)

this is such a horrid month. a stressful, long, agonizing month.


may.



ap, regents prep, homework up, fun down, i die.

i want feedback. is this being read, or is this just for my personal gain?


ap world in a week (may 20).
i'm (almost!) excited.



To my yellow dog:

Your lids close like lips
that summon sluggish words
with their last breath,
a night closing in on itself
like lips on a ball
of unraveling yarn.
Night has been your shelter,
my slumber—your guardian;
the wicked witch
has whipped you away,
you dying, yellow dog
with a head attached by
two thin yellow strings.
Diamond eyes and golden crust
that cooled against my cheek
evenings and summer afternoons,
under thick blankets, false hopes
that disappeared with daunting
dreams and jaunting ambitions—
night prowling in black,
plastic eyes, wind flapping
in long, detached ears. My yellow dog: Ten years,
you have brought me night;
Ten years, you have brought
me sleep. You aged Thai yellow
doll—your last barks ring
around my head in dreams.




edit:and sarah, this is not about ginger.

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Flower of Anguish

15:58 / by the gloriously humble gadi cohen / loving replies (2)

Somebody’s crying. I can just barely distinguish her sobs—frail and feathery, like little hummingbirds—as they sink into the bitter night air. Her bare feet crunch the blades of grass around me, and swift jolts and vibrations pour into my roots like frozen jets of water, gradually swelling in magnitude as the girl draws closer and closer. I lurch in pain, just as a vigorous shock reverberates into the dirt around me; a long, anguished yowl seeps into my pores. It’s the girl’s knees punching stiffly into the earth, I think—that booming shock that twists my stem.



She starts screaming words—human words, words I can’t comprehend—and her voice peels away the warmth of night like a tree’s bark, leaving only the naked darkness to settle into the turf. Her strident shrieks send chills through my body. If only I could help her, if only I could understand—if only we would be able to understand each other, to speak to each other...



Her tears reach my taproots. Warm and zesty, the tears elicit some ill, distorted emotion in me—not empathy, no—but a sore, shrill feeling of torment and solitude. I yearn to see—yearn for my petals to open, for my eyes to unlock like a pair of clogged jaws—just so I could capture one short glimpse of her, just so I could watch her anguish unfold before my very own eyes.

I think: Maybe if I see it—maybe if I gaze at it long enough—I could help her.